Tides change like weather. Plans don't materialize as they should be. The sad thing is we don't always have the luxury of accommodating every change be it in relationships, careers, businesses, health and happiness. The only consolation is maybe finding the constant amidst the unsettled. In time, we will learn to muster the ability to fight change or at least condition ourselves to minimize the damage. And if we're really that lucky, we may even emerge unscathed, though hardly possible. Anyhow, I do hope Limsie gets to jet off for her much anticipated retreat as planned. For me, I'm happy as I am here and now (:

[Tuesday 25.01.2011] Nothing's better than ending the evening with my two biggest loves - Bee and Starbucks!
..Bee 'surprised' me with a massage treat in Town too (: how not to love?

[24.01.2011 Monday] Star of the night at Bayang.
T'was a night of joyful camaraderie and catching-up for the Willtechies...something that's been missing for quite some time. Couldn't be more pleased with the contented smiles and the happy tummies :)

Received an unexpected call yesterday from the long lost Collin. Exaggeration intended cus it really felt like eons ago since we spoke. The familiar voice ( though much weathered compared to the clown he used to be) sent flooding images of the good ol' days we camped in the karaoke together with Glyn and Jacky. I do miss the lot. lol. and then he dropped me a huge bomb --- what can possibly change in a year, my goodness? apparently a lot. I'm more than prepared to be filled in with details :P And I'm so looking forward to meeting them (finally) this Monday together with Bee. i could tell they're really excited to meet him as well (:  yay!

reflections...

hmmm, how should i start... a recent incident sort of catalyzed a thought; are certain friendships really worth the while? 

 It has never been an issue to me because I've always been clear of who matters to me most. The rest are just friends so how i treat you pretty much represents your weight in me. I'm never a mean person but I am guilty of faking it sometimes. Now that i think about it, I am still faking it to some. And it really takes one who sees through me to point that out. I'm glad he did because I do have a problem. I'm too used to accommodating the unimportant and i'm too obliging. Sometimes i feel bad because i know very well that certain friendships will never progress beyond companionship and fun. And knowing that they don't even stand up for you and protect your interest, really says something. What's with the insensitivity and avoidance? Did they even care about how i feel? Hardly i guess. I feel sad and angry at the same time for allowing myself to oblige time and again, outing after outing. Sure i used to be bored and I needed their company, but not anymore. Companions come and go so why should I be any different? If i were a true friend to them, they would've watched my back; they would've been more sensitive to my feelings. Of cus it's not always just about them. I was wrong too, I didn't take such friendships seriously and I was superficial with them. So now i'm offering restitution by opting out. I'm not ungrateful for the times they have filled my empty spaces, but unfortunately my attention can only be dedicated to a very special lot now.... and most importantly, I want to keep my friendships real. For the rest, let's just keep a cordial distance.

Two more weeks to CNY and why am I not surprised by the lack of excitement... I can do a mental rundown of what's gonna happen...nothing short of the Predictable and Routine. bleahhh.. and a weekend out with mummy dearest in Orchard really took a toll on the both of us. It's no longer enjoyable rubbing shoulders with bargain hunters anymore. it's giving us massive headaches.

The only plaudible part about the whole cny thing is maybe the ang baos. come on, admit it..who doesn't. you probably don't because you're married and disgruntled at the fact that you're no longer at the receiving end, period.

if i have the money, though, i would rather go on a short trip :)
  


all dressed up for shopping with mumsy! <3

 



mad love this scarf i got from Accessorize a few weeks back ;) had to get it cus it was on 50%. Woot!



 
Bee came over on Saturday night to continue our movie-marathon. Had an awesome weekend doing movie marathons with Bee and it's amazing that no matter how much time we spend together it just doesn't seem enough. We watched 'The pursuit of Happiness', 'Precious', 'The Notebook' and 'Dear John'. oh! and 'Bruce Lee, my brother' on Sunday. Was a good mix of the inspiring and heart wrenching. As usual I fell asleep halfway through 'dear john'... must be the nice warm pillow i had :) OR that the storyline's less than mediocre according to bee who still sat through it despite having watched it before. He never fails to amaze me with his ability to stay awake in movies no matter how tired he is... unbelievable.




Jonathan Ang experimenting on the new bad boy 'mohawk' hair...and he's dead serious about it.

 

coolest ;)

 
 
  

Thank goodness Rella's finally back! at least we get to sleep-in on Sundays <3 She was telling us how she wanted to come back after 3 days cus she was so used to her life here... oh, what has urbanisation done to her... lol. i gotta say her absence really made us appreciate her help more than ever.

Was pure bliss to sip coffee and have breakfast at the pond area on a breezy Sunday morning :) Bee enjoyed looking at the fishes so much...something of cus i can never understand cus everytime i look at the fishes they just remind me of the awful amount of filth and bugs beneathe the platform that we were forced to clean up. thanks, but no thanks.

We wanted to eat at Holland V after bee's class in the evening but the parking was so pathetic there. kinda expected but i still have to rant. Waiting for parking lots is top 10 on my hatelist. plus, i really ahe driving around in circles...So we sped off to Vivo city and ate at Barcelos. The food there is kinda overpriced for the serving. So if you're looking to fill your funger, then don't go there. service was quite bad too. hunger and annoyance together can be lethal if you know what i mean. LOL.

Was super super late for work today cus of some last min admin arrangements that have to be done at home ..plus a ginormous jam at Mandai. did i mention i hate driving earlier?? I REALLY do. Oddly, after a week of flats and pumps, i'm having trouble walking in elevation. i mean heels. i wask walking in an awkward manner.. absolutely unglam.

Had an awesome time catching up with friendsie and Jm last last Saturday in Taka!!

 

been missing you girls!

 



A lot is happening for us lately. More so for me...and Bee's new exciting plans forward. This is really going to be an awesome year for the both of us. We're going to make everything work! Whatever it is, i'm glad we're in this together, believing and supporting each other in everyway :) It's all about having that vision of us, living a life we wanted and being so impossibly happy. The thought of it just makes me squeal in excitement :)

That's the general.. As for me, i'm finally ready for a leapt. it's not going to be easy i know.. but i need to do something for myself now. I need to try to find the right job and build my own career in my own way. I want to be able to step outside and make a difference for myself. Now is the right time because i'm finally getting the blessings from my parents. and of cus, bee has been really supportive too, though i know he'd really rather i work for him instead. hahaha... i feel pampered because there's one more person fighting to protect me :) so i'm not afraid of what's to come for me with all the love i'm getting now.

Wish me luck in my job search, k? :)

Sidetrack a bit, i'm quoting someone from his blog. This is nothing embarassing. In fact i really think he meant it when he typed this, despite his distasteful record of being a player in the past :P

"I've always loved to be deeply in love with someone.. someone I can spend the rest of my life with.. Someone I can Love God with.. Someone who will be my all weather wife.. Who'll build up our dreams together.. I'm sure there's one out there whom I will fall crazily in love with and she'll also do the same.. someone who loves watching soccer with me, who loves watching me play.. Who loves watching movies with me at home.. Who loves the simple things...."

This was in 2008. Those are simple expectations coming from a complicated person whom i've come to love, head over heels with.

Reading about you and your past, and sieving out stuff like that from the tonnes of entries you've had... only confirms one thing, that i was right about you. beneathe all that doodle and mess, you're just a piece of white paper. and ever since the night at M. barrage, i've been wanting to erase all that for you..because i know somewhere inside you're an exception :)

So, congratulations bee! you found yourself an 'all weather girlfriend' ;) and the best part is i'm just as crazily in love as you are, PLUS, i also love watching you play soccer, and whatever simple and lame things we do together. even if i fall short of being everything you wished for, I'll make it up to you in other ways :) but under one condition... don't ever doubt me. LOL :P