to live with, or without

i feel that at this point, i'm being confronted with a very difficult question.Can i live with or without?
I can... of cus continue like how i've always been for years. It's easy. I have a life, and a good one.
But my heart is singing a different tune. I know the saying.."time will tell", of cus it will but i'm an ever-changing Gemini. I need assurance, constant reminders and confirmation of what i am and where i stand, to pull me back down on earth and not drift far from where i'm suppose to be. It's a very peculiar way to describe myself but this is who i am and it's by no means a sign of low self-esteem. And even though i do feel guilty for enjoying this uncertainty, i'd rather not.